I've had a personal revolution. Before this point, my entire thing was art. Thats all I ever wanted to do. Just draw on the computer. I wanted to get better and better and be the best there was. I was determined to try my hardest as long as possible and never quit. That's changed.

Of course, I still love drawing. But digital art turns me into a hermit w/out any free time dedicated to anything else. Digital art may be the perfect thing for other people, but not for me. I'll still draw on paper and everything, but after I finish off these last 3 requests, dont expect any art from me. Dont take me off your watch list, cuz I may do some art once in a while, and it wont hurt to leave me there, but dont expect even the littlest from me. For your aid, heres whats going on.

The old me: I loved drawing on the computer ALL the time. It was my super big thing I loved doing more than anything else. Of course, I was antisocial though, and I suffered severe loneliness and depression.

The new me: I love drawing. I really do. But what I love more is music (namely My Chemical Romance). They've inspired me to learn guitar, and believe it or not, their emoness has counteracted mine and made me happier. I have more friends now, and I have a much better life. Of course, on the inside, Im still depressed and paranoid and slightly disturbed (I feel like I see things in the dark every night). But MCR has inspired me to do other things and try to take care of myself. Their singer (my favorite celebrity) ( [link] ) is really inspiring (despite some really odd things about him that I wont discuss because a lot of you guys are similar and the last thing Id ever do is hurt someones feelings). He grew up in a dangerous area and recently recovered from drug and alcohol abuse, as well as depression. He sounds like a bad guy, but he RECOVERED from those things, like how I hope to recover from my own problems. Besides; he's an artist, too. But either way, their amazing music has REALLY helped me, and I want to play music myself now because of how much impact it has on people.

Much love to you guys if you read this. I know you wont miss me, but whatever. I dunno if Ill be around after these last 3 pics, but bye bye for now.



Quote from Gerard Way, the singer of MCR, that really summarizes my current feelings:
"If for one minute you think you're better than a sixteen year old girl in a Green Day t-shirt, you are sorely mistaken. Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favorite band. You wore their shirt, and sang every word. You didn't know anything about scene politics, haircuts, or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared a locker with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about."